On and off I can't think of the word to say for a thing. Sometimes I can see the word in my head, like I'm reading it in my mind, but I can't physically say it.
I forget what I'm going to say mid way through a sentence. I forget what I was trying to write down by the time the paper and pen are ready to write it.
Then I'll be fine and remember everything for a few weeks. Then I seem to lose all ability to use language in a normal manner. I get frustratedly tongue-tied. I use hand gestures and get nothing productive to come out of my mouth.
A week or two ago I forgot how to tie a bow. Three days later I suddenly had my brain recall the information and I felt so stupid.
Yesterday I tried to braid my hair and I couldn't. I couldn't keep track of where my fingers were and I couldn't remember what to do next with them.
I sat on the living room floor and cried. I've been able to braid my hair since elementary school. And now at 33 I can't do it anymore because of the way that Lyme Disease impacts my memory.
Sometimes it honestly scares me. I'm not sure I can tell you for a certainty what I'm capable of anymore. It could all come and go as randomly and quickly as my symptoms.
Have you ever dealt with something like this?
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